My therapist describes guilt as anger at self. I think she's probably correct in that assessment. For being someone who dislikes Catholicism because of its apparent guilt-ridden structure, I still seem to carry a lot of it. I am a very angry person some days and I think a good share of that anger is directed at myself. I'm really not the person I expected I would become and I'm angry about that...well, disappointed, anyway. I recently described myself as honor-less. I'm not sure that's true. If I had no honor, I probably wouldn't feel guilt over my actions. If I didn't feel guilt over my actions, then I would be a sociopath. I'm kind of screwed either way. Either I accept the guilt or stop caring completely. Hmm. I wonder if this is another option.