I've looked back through this BLOG and realized that I used to be a semi-happy person, or I presented myself that way, anyway. Admittedly, I did have a lot of mood swings. I don't have a lot of those anymore. Most of the time, I'm just depressed. For whatever reason, I'm having a lot of trouble seeing over the edge of the pit I've dug for myself. I think I better keep digging and hope I find water so I can float myself out of here.

As to why I'm depressed, I might just know that one. I think it's because I've seen the potential for what I could do and what I could be but I'm not seeing the means. Maybe, I need to have faith that the details will be worked out and take the plunge. Ah, but plunging in what direction...there's the question. Do I plunge down or up or maybe forward? Maybe, I should just let my cat do my typing for me, though he seems primarily interested in the space bar at the moment.

So what will it take for this "self" to be realized? It will only take a significant adjustment of every outlook I have on life. It will only take a significant realignment of my values and enlightenment of body, mind and soul. Hey, if that's all, no problem. We'll be done by early next week. :p